Archive for July, 2011

The Web

Posted in Just Day to Day Schtuff on July 26, 2011 by KAHNSoft

Darkness, disturbed by a glowing web of light.  Connections glowing brighter like bright little spheres.

The web of my mind links everything like some social internet.  Emotions to events to people.

I see the web and I reach out.  I touch a link and it’s sticky, adhering to my finger as I pull back until eventually it snaps back into place.  I repeat the procedure, but instead, this time,  I grab the point where the lines converge and squeeze until, eventually, the glow escaping my closed fist fades and disappears.  Dies.  I feel a part of my memory darken.  Peace.  A voice silenced.  A scream fades.

Bright points of light extinguished, connections undone.

More connections, more glowing dots, more voices, silently screaming in my head.  Tear it all down.

A mental exercise to be sure, but seemingly effective.

As the space dims and the pain subsides, peace reins.

Darkness.  Cool.  Clean.  Quiet.

Peace

Something anyway…

Posted in Just Day to Day Schtuff on July 19, 2011 by KAHNSoft

I don’t know when I started to care about my weight.  I mean, like everybody, I wish I was in as good a shape as I was when I was in high school (or better yet, when I was at the post office throwing boxes all night).  It would be nice to be able to put on a shirt without my gut hanging out the bottom of it; but, I never really used to worry about it.  Not so much that was actively going to do anything about it and certainly not to an extent that I felt like I should  advertise any little change in my weight.

That said, I’ve lost some weight…about 12 pounds so far.  Basically the only thing I’ve changed is that I’ve almost completely cut soda out of my diet.  My vice for anyone who knows me has been Mt. Dew (specifically Code Red).  I had actually almost entirely cut the old Mt. Dew out of my system when they came out with Code Red and I was hooked all over again.

Anyway, I don’t have any illusions that I will get back down to the 155 that I weighed when I left ye ole PO but it would be nice to be able to wear my Haunted Mansion shirt without feeling like I was going to break the buttons off.  I did a little mental calculation the other day and figured that if I maintained the drop at the rate I was going, it would take me just over two months to get under 200 lbs.  Here’s hoping.